Jenn's Bridal Shower & So Much More!

Yesterday I attended Jenn's Bridal shower--which had a very cool "Mardi Gras" theme :)



I drove out to Menifee to hang with her and her long time buds. It was a lot of fun and I even got to hang with the lovely (6 months and 4 days pregnant) Brandy! (Who by the way looks absolutely radiant!) Jenn was all smiles and oh so happy. It was so great to just hang out with girls. I know it sounds silly, but since moving out to Southern Cali after college (Nor Cal) I really haven't made that many. Which reminds me: Noosh and Lacey we need to get together soon :) There were veggies for me to eat and loads of goodies. We played a few games, one which Brandy, Mama Libby and I won! They had to wrap me in toilet paper and make a wedding dress out of it. I'm sure Jenn will have pictures up that I can snatch from her soon. :) As a prize I got this cute partylite candle set, which I lit the second I got home because it smelled sooo good :) I also got to meet Bella. Which sparked that stupid baby fever in me. She's soooo cute and soooo tiny. I haven't been around very many babies my whole life. The thought of holding one makes me so nervous. How do you know what to do with them??!! HAHAHA. Well Jenn, I just wanted to say thank you for a great time and it was awesome to meet most of your besties :) It was so fun hanging with you and Brandy--I sooo wish I lived closer to the two of you. Thanks bud. :)


Updates on my life:
* Work is insane right now. The students started Fall Quarter on Thursday. My brain has been on overdrive and I've been getting home super exhausted.

* Edgar and I have been considering trying to purchase our first home next year after our lease is up at our apartment. We will NEVER be able to afford property in Orange County, but a month or two ago we went and saw some houses in Murrieta. This, I think we can actually do. If we can make it a reality I will be soooo happy. I'm so sick of apartment living.

* Edgar and I have called off the wedding plans. Wait. Stop. Before you freak out, we just decided it's an expense we can't afford and there are more important things in our life. So, I bought a nice ivory tea-length wedding dress and in a month or two we are going to head over to the Justice of the Peace and get married. Cheap? Yes. Still getting married? Yes. We are both tired of putting it off. I am super excited about it. It feels more like "us" anyway. I figure we'll keep it family only and afterwards head over to my mom's or my uncle's for a barbecue and some cake :D Do we need more than that? No. I'm just happy that we will FINALLY be husband and wife.

* I have found a new television show and I'm obsessed with it.
It's "TRUE BLOOD" on HBO. It's on every Sunday...and it's a show about Vampires in the South (or Midwest) can't remember. But mostly everyone has a smooth southern accent and it's just a hot and sexy show. I love me some vampires. Man I so missed having cable.

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Learning About Myself

These are the things I've learned about myself.

1) It is possible I have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) or I am just very anal.

Here are the reasons why I believe this:

* Last week I was at a friends house playing Scrabble. Every time one of the small tiles was not laying flat on the board's surface I had to fix it. I HAD TO FIX IT. I would stare at it obsessively, I would try not to focus on it, but I couldn't look away and if I managed to do so I was thinking about it. It was haunting me.

* When I am at Blockbuster if I see a movie title and it is not in it's place I feel compelled to put it where it belongs. Key word: COMPELLED.

* When I go to a clothing store and I try on something that I don't like, I will walk back to where I originally picked it up from and put it back. I don't put things in random places. I don't do it to be nice to the sales people--I do it because it seriously bugs the crap out of me that the article of clothing is not where it belongs. Key word: BELONGS.

* My DVDs at home are arranged by genre and then by alphabet.

2) I think I am a CONTROL freak.
Here's why:

* If I could do everything myself I would. Meaning I would cut my own hair, do my own makeup (for special occasions, etc.), sew my own clothes, grow my own food, so on and so forth. I am one of those, you're not doing it right, here let me do that, type of people. It sucks, but it's me.

* If my desk is a mess at work I feel like I'm losing control.

3) I am a feeler and a giver.

* I thrive off of giving to those that I love and feeling needed. I am a cancer--a nurturer by nature of the stars. I thrive off feeling like I can help someone, like I've made a difference in their life. I feed off of this need, it gives me purpose in life.

* I don't think with my brain. I am NOT a rational thinker. I am an emotional feeling type of person. My actions, for the majority of the time, are based off of my emotions. This sometimes makes me a damn lunatic, I'm sure it drives others crazy. I am overly emotional and when that happens I throw all logic out of the window with good reasoning.

This is who I am.

I am a deep thinker. Sometimes I can get lost in my thoughts and stare into space and nothingness. My vision blurs and I will think about anything and everything. Lately when people have been talking to me my mind will wander and they will be talking and talking and I tune them out only to go to my own thoughts. It's mean, but it happens and I can't stop it. I am not a quiet person, but I can be. When I am not lost in my thoughts I am talking a lot. However, if you've caught me at a time when I am drowning in visions and life and "what ifs" I will be rude to you, I will be short with you. How dare you cut into my "me" time.

As the years go by, I learn more about myself. Sometimes, it's surprising. Sometimes, I realize I already kind of had an idea all along. More to come. My mind is in sixth gear and I'm driving 100 mph down the freeway of my thoughts. I can't make it stop.

Well Shit on Me!

**WARNING, this post contains a shit load of curse words. This may not be suitable for some adults**

so STFU.

Do you ever have days where you wake up and you just feel like fucking shit? Where traffic is bad and everyone is driving but it's like they have no where to go at fucking 6:30AM because they are driving like the speed limit is 35? Ok, so what if it's 45 and I'm going 60, you see me in you rear view mirror, so get the fuck out of my way! Ok, don't move and I'll just drive around you. Or what about those days where it seems like you get every single mother fucking red light ever created by dumb assholes? Yeah. Those days where you question your surroundings. Where you're living, where you are working, what you are doing with your life? One of those days where you feel stagnant? Like the world is moving around you but you are stuck in a fucking pool of cement? One of those days where you remember what it was like to be 10-15 pounds lighter and you remember that when you were that weight you still thought you were fat?? WTF?? Or one of those days where you can't figure out what the fuck is wrong with your lazy ass because no matter what you do you can't commit to a work out plan to get rid of the fat on your lumpy ass? One of those days where you are sick of not getting respect, sick of dealing with self-centered assholes who live only for themselves and for no one else? Yeah. One of those days where your bed is too small, your car is too slow, your desk is too messy and your life seems meaningless? One of those days where your cat wakes you up 30 min too early at 4:30AM when the alarm is supposed to go off at 5AM? One of those days where you realize that you are 27 and that there are people younger than you that have made more progress in their lives than you have and it is driving you crazy that you feel you are forever stuck in limbo--waiting and waiting for certain events and things to happen in your life? Ever have one of those days where you stop and ask yourself, "How the fuck did I get here?". Yeah, it's one of those days. So shit on me. Fuckin' A.

Adventures in Shopping

So I'm officially on vacation this week. I'm so happy, I really feel like I needed it. Yesterday I went over to visit my mom. We went shopping because I had a $60 gift card for Macy's that Edgar's parents gave me for my birthday and I was anxious to spend it! I found the best deal on a 12 inch cast iron frying pan and I also found a cast iron grill/griddle both for $14.99!! That's so cheap. A 10 inch at Target is like $20. I also picked up a food slicer for $20. I'm very excited to start using these wonderful kitchen tools. I "seasoned" the frying pan last night and today I will try and "season" the grill.

While my mother and I were at the mall we decided to stop by JCPenney. I was in dire need of new bras. In my mother's words "the bra you have on pushes you down and makes you look flat". Um, hello mom, I have no boobs. I'm a B cup! So I tried on several bras and actually bought some push-up ones. They are very comfortable, but I'm trying to get used to seeing more boobage in the area. Somehow, it doesn't seem fair--I feel like I'm cheating! HAhahaa, oh well, they were on sale and they are comfortable, so we'll see how long it takes for me to get used to my new found boobies. :)

Here's the bra I bought:
Ambrielle Optimum Body Push up Bra

Because it Made Me Laugh.